Meditation Journal - The Old Woman's Gift

As I contemplated the call to write what would become Jones Gap Chronicles and attempt to share the story of the lives of these beautiful people, I realized there were problems to overcome. I became deeply concerned that I would not have, within myself, what it would take to write the story Little Deer (Awanita) wanted me to tell. One evening I sat quietly and began the practice of emptying my mind in meditation to seek my answers.

An old Indian woman sat across from me with her eyes closed as I prayed. She was chanting a song. I sat paralyzed - partly because I was surprised with the vision I was experiencing during this meditation time, and partly because I felt held fast, apprehended by a power outside myself.

The chanting came to a stop. The old woman opened her eyes and looked at me. I looked into her eyes as she picked up a blowgun and aimed it directly at me while placing one end of it into her mouth. She blew into the slender wooden tube and a kernel of corn exited the open end of the blowgun. The kernel traveled slowly toward me and entered me between my eyes. I briefly felt its energy as it made contact with me, penetrating my mind and my spirit. The old woman seemed pleased. Then she vanished.

I understood these three things from this vision:
1) The kernel of corn was a seed of spiritual value.
2) Between my eyes was symbolic of my third eye.
3) That I had been given a gift; the gift I would need to tell their story.